In a Good Place

January 2019, aside from one majorly unfortunate event, has been the best month I have had in a long time.

It’s a bit odd how in spite of something really difficult, things can turn around completely for you emotionally. I’ve found perspective through the audiobook I’ve just finished listening to, Wild by Cheryl Strayed. I saw the movie years ago and never thought much of it, but I decided on a whim to give the book a chance. I am so glad I did. There are things in the movie that only make sense to me with the perspective that the book has given me. Since starting this book, I have become a bit fascinated with those crazy (and amazing) people who make the decision to thru hike the AT, PCT, etc. I’ve been watching Homemade Wanderlust on YouTube since finishing the audiobook for more information on real-life hikers. Last week, I came down with major cabin fever and managed to persuade (it was not hard) my fiancé to go on a “hike” with me at our favorite park nearby. We’d been on the trail before. This is weird – but I had a strange thrill being able to pee in the woods. Had I seen a bear or snake on this hike, I would have actually dropped dead. Luckily – it’s January and that was not an actual challenge I faced.

My stable emotional state and positive outlook is even evident to my wonderful counselor. She has expressed that I can cut back on visits, should I desire to, as she sees improvement in me. I’m encouraged by this, but I may give it more time so that I can also come to this conclusion with full confidence.

One thing I am particularly proud of myself for lately is managing my money. This year will be no picnic for finances. I’ve agreed to be in four weddings, one of them being my own.

1. Role: Bridesmaid. I am a bridesmaid for one of my high school friends. She is currently (aside from my fiancé and my family) my closest friend in the state of Virginia. Hers will be the first bachelorette party I ever attend. I’m hoping my friend and her friends can keep it together! Much to my liking, the ceremony and reception both take place very close to my house. Date: May 18, 2019.
2. Role: Ceremony Musician. I am a ceremony musician for my best friend Mary Kate’s little sister and her fiancé. The wedding will take place about two and a half hours away. They have asked me to play six songs in the ceremony. I’ve got to say – that is a new record for me. Date: May 25, 2019.
3. Role: Bride. If you’ve been following this blog, you’ll know I’m engaged and I will be getting married on September 21, 2019 to the love of my life, Jonathan.
4. Role: Bridesmaid. My college bandmates, Katie and Tristan, are finally engaged after three years of dating. They will be getting married in Nashville. The date is TBD, but I’m expecting it in October or November.

I have much to look forward to. The top thing being (obviously) my own wedding. Eight months to go before I am officially Sarah Harper.